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HELLS HARD KITCHEN
Kitchen hells will come alive again
Haggered old kitchen still hanging on
Life still holding that thread
Could snap at any time
At any point-my war could be over
For this life over-carried on later
Kitchen invoke
Kitchen revoke
Kitchen rework
Kitchen emotives
Kitchen motives
Kitchen is my roundabout
Kitchen is my wheel of life
Kitchen is my wheel of death
Kitchen is my chance to fight
Kitchen is my cycle of change
Wok around the clock
Fight round the circle
Held in by the steel rim
Cold hard circle
Wok around the clock
Or fall in daily life
Fall with bloods too low
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HELLS HARD KITCHEN} 💀
Hungers come down hard
Hells hard kitchen
Hells cold reserve
Hot on the hotplate
Fires in the loins
Rages at social realitys
Ravages of time
Rumbles in the guts
Righteous kept in agonys
Knowing social history's too much
Intellectualist fervours
Burning around the clock
Slowed down by an empty belly
Curled up against society
Coiled up metal turns to red
But it's a heartless kitchen now
One day it'll get fiXed
They will change it over
Help me to replace old fixtures
When my brain is calmer
Can access social features
But I'm not with-it yet
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HELLS HARD KITCHEN 💀
Writers retreat
Isolation complete
Retroistical sentiments
Getting lost amongst the boxes
Improvised storage solutions
Trying to create a better space
Getting in the way
In modernist societys
They are streaking ahead
With moderate realitys 😆😆
Happy moderates
Happy leaving it to others
Happy not knowing
Happy with limited perspectives
Nothing digs in deep-flimsy souls
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SOCIAL SCENE HELLS 💀
Not understanding scenes
Not born into social wars
Not hit by the waves of social upheavels
Not touched by the war times
Not free from the other side of the atlantic
Not protected by the great waters
Not getting away when it hits your roots
It's a huge tidal wave-its history turning!!!
You can't feel it-you can't dig it man!!!
Your the outsiders-blank historys
Your born into a bubble
Your free of the tug & rip of passions
Your born with equalitys as a birthright
Your not fit to judge it-push others to moderate
Your not one to perceive-the perspectives
Your born free-your not tied
No scars from passions
No scars from family's plunged into warfare
Not pushed outside by social resistance
You live unscarred
You love unscathed
Your family isn't being destroyed
Your not born targeted & controlled
Your born protected
Your outside of the destructions
Bully for you-for you it's enough
Bullshit buy-ins to compromise
Bully for you-blindness convienant
Buy into the weaker sides
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SOCIAL SCENE WARS 💀
Impartial to the pores
Not burdened by perception(s)
Born free to know joys
Born free of struggles
Born free of social stigmas
Born free to love god
Socially moderated
Limited commitments
Going on into nowhere
Fuck their plastic dreams
Raised on eccentrics
Raised on fighting for your sanitys
Raised on eXtremist view points
Emotional hot plates
Staying on red
Societal warfares-its not over with yet
Turned up high-staying on hot reds
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SOCIAL SCENE WARS📍
Stay in hell-stay smarter
Stay drunk on rebellions
Stay drunk on bitter wines-older historys
Stay tasting on bitter-its old loyaltys
Stay twisting around with social theorys
Stay like angry snakes-who bite back
Stay holding onto perspectives
Stay angry in your underwear
Stay heavy in your music's
Metal masters
Came from the band's before them
Help stop the fuse from blowing
Help gird up the loins to go fight
Old tunes help remind us
Older psyche bands beat the marching drum
Hear the snare of military march
Hear the snares of the older schools
Hear the artwaves-its a snare that drills
Hear the drill patterns beat-not there wars drum
Hear the snare beat-for the others left behind
Beating for soldiers to go on through
Beating for other side-peeps who didn't want wars
God's love was in the airwaves
God's love crossed over the giant seas
It was coming together
Emporer of love & peace made it strong
No matter what happens after
His powers-still remain
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GODS CRYSTAL WINDOWS 🎯
Born for a different reason
Born around those made different
Born seperated-no choices there
Born into social upheavels-it was that age
Born into social backlash-its a long war now
Born into a different world
Can't afford to care too much
Have it in my genetics
Had it on my background
Have it in my culture
Have it backed-up by bloody roots
Have all the hells thrown in my face!!
Have all the hells served on my plate
Have all the hells-of those gone before
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SOCIAL SCENE WARS📍📍
It's all been done before
Man who made me had it already
Women who made me-she couldn't take it
Man who made me-had to fight it alone
Raising hell against impositions
Can't tell him how to think
Raising up resistance
Raising up all hells-your gonna know it!!!
He didn't like society
He wasn't greeted gladly
He was treated badly
He was outsider to there realitys
He had to say no way
He was trying to say hell no
He's put me outside them
He's pressed on my loyaltys
He's made my brain difficult
He's altered my brain-my emotives
He's taken my choices away
He wasn't impartial-selfish to the bone
He was controlling-cruel all along
He's pressured-on my styles
Now I have starker voices
Now I have a colder society
Now I have less choices
Now I'm fighting all the world
Social assumptions-their lives
Social medias-wrong generation
Their social prioritys
Not so much
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HELLS HARD KITCHEN ❄️
No place for partys
No place for socialites
No place for the weak
No place for compromise
Surrounded by spiders
Tiny workers lifespan turning in secret
Kept hidden in webs of endevours
Out of sight-out of dreams
Out of sight-out of life
Out of time-struggle to survive
Out of sightline-to stay safe
Out of time-out of place
Out of gridlock-like invisible
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HELLS HARD KITCHEN ❄️
Cold kitchen in nowhere
Cold kitchen in a ghetto scene
Cold kitchen trapping others dreams
Cold light at night
Trying for hot drinks
Illuminate corner
Modern technologys
Substitutes for broken light
Like a plug in star
Cold light in hell
Sealing in the gloom
No mother love here
Wasn't from the start
Born into bad webs
Time hasn't been kind
Time is hardening the soldiers
Time is struggling to hold onto the beat
Kitchen feels sad
Needs a rework
Cold dark mirror with no reflection
Years of struggles
Battered it around
Kitchen full of fears
Radio bleeds in society in chaos
Resolution is challenged
Routine isn't routine reality
Plagued by chaos
Patterns of disorder
Plugs in dark realms
Plug in to sudden rages
Pictures from rotten old hells
Intrude in daily circuits
No easy life routines
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GODS CRYSTAL WINDOWS🌹
Tricky lifestyle
Tricky hours
Trying to get a hold
Trying to keep a grip on time
Time gets on a mess-mind can slip
Hypermind can get stuck
Hypersoul lead into lost
Hyperdrive can stick like a record
Angers round a cycle never cease
Kept soothed by musical interludes
Keep on hearing the psyche snare
Keep on holding to that beat
Keep on marching-its my age!!!
Survival fears have a strong base
Social phobias have many threads
Society of eXpectations
Society's still pressing in
Life sentence imposed
Making other choices
Trying other changes
Taking other chances
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SOCIAL SCENE WARS 🎯
Not applicable
Assumptions
Thoughtless
Lightweight bloodlines
Can't help us
Rhetorical fantasys
Made useless now
Weightless rubbish
Souring systems
Sister to illusions
Souless assertions
Fear of systemic erasers
Fighting foundational fears
Found fear in my forebares
Taught me fears from the start
Can't control own life wheel
Society wants your kitchen
Society needs your mind
Social roles eXpected
Fill your bowl of life with their shit
Rather starve
Born into stubborn
Don't like being told
Smart guys have some other solutions
Seeking other options
Don't want to do it
Dead will not arise
Not going to happen now
Dead end relations ⚰️
Broke the social chains
They can go straight back to hell
Living in a lie
Didn't get asked
Fuck you all anywayz
Still left alive somewhere inside!!! 🛠️
Fantasy lifestyle pushed on TV
Lovely life of pretentious cooking
Not showing up in austeritys
They don't care much
Strangers become stranger
The cold become colder
The old getting older
Going around life wheel slower
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SOCIAL SCENE WARS 📍📍
I don't care enough to change
Stubborness saves the braver souls
Sail some ships alone
Set out in barren places
Some lives have no faces
Some faces have no life
Some realitys dark on dark
Some chances stark on stark
Buying into happiness
Buying into mediocritys
Buying into societys of lovely
Lovely & lightweight
Superficial surfaces
Fleeting happiness
Surface capacitys won't do it
If society collapses
No real grip on realitys
Will blow away in the next storm
Weightless when you get judged
My blackened heart grows blacker over time
Fat black cats will be toothless one day
Fat black cats now-will be scrawny in old age
Grown a belly full of scorns
Angers of the gods-trying to preserve us
Ripping blackness
Rages full of angry thorns
Blacker roses still grow in the dimness
There's no love left to tame them
There's no way left to shame them
So they grow in the wilderness
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GODS BLACK WINDOWS🌹
Full of black from a darker cauldron
We know God's worth is better
We know Gods wrath is complete
We know Gods world has been betrayed
No love left for the lonely
No love left for the showdown
No love known when shadows fight shadows
No love showing when it comes to a fight
Lifelines like thin threads of silk
Liable to brake in the wind
Liability to the hate schemes
Liniage full of hardliners
It's a cold hard line
Fall out the circle
Lose the loop
Liable for troubles
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GODS BLACK WINDOWS 🌹
Drop down in the cycle
Drop down & die
Die like a fly that got caught
Die in a web full of lies
Dire in circumstance
Decided always to be the fighter
Dread of circumstance
Decisive in the long rounds
Dedicated to lifetime of studys
Economics control choices
Fantasy familys
Creating realitys
Fantasy chefs
Blind to all povertys
Set the standards to attain
Dosn't work in other kitchens
Warm loving homes
Better from the start
Free from fear
Free from wars
Free from death
Where the light shone on them
Golden spoon already claimed
Never had it contested
Never had to ask
Never had the wars touch your lives
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SOCIAL SCENE WARS 💀
Not for the others
War has forced itself in
Here the light is broken
Hells hard kitchen
Have to plug in a low light
Have my own night star
High lightbulb no more
Lonley work station
Not loved by the nation
Persecution of species
Prosecution of perception
Death hand on leases
Struggle with wars inside
Struggle with society
Cold hard eyes
Breeding more rebellions
Morbid mentalitys
Manifest every day
Cold & loveless circles
Circle of scorns
Circuits of organical self
Surviving still
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Hells hard kitchen}
Not welcome & warm
Wish I was more stable
Could make it better
Mod cons not avalible
Always have drinks
Always lay out meds
Always take about half
Always drop about half
Concentration slippy
Fingers of fumble
Always late to eat
Brainiac endevours
Happens every week
Diapause slumbers
Comotose slumbers
Can't stay awake
Calories too low
Bloods too low
Bad days cluster
Going into threes
Everything slips past too fast
Days marked by darkness
When system shuts down
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GODS BLACK WINDOWS
Depressive numbers going in too low
Black outs slip over days
Everyday thoughts have a mirror
In domestic struggles
In culinary intentions
Infestations of inner douphts
Inner conflicts over the wok pan
In cooking there is war
In society food isn't just food
In food there is status
In society we have plates
Circles of assumptions
God knows you more
Plates of status
My plate is cheap
My bowl is basics
My status plate is low
My bowl is called survivalist
Even smart types can get shoved aside
In favour of the masses
Massive prioritys
Mass gene pool
Not in this house
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HELLS HARD KITCHEN
Cheap chow
Glucose for the body
Glucose for the brain
Make it faster now
Keep it simple
Keep it quick
More time for the super brain
We live underground
Hidden lives-stay unknown
Lives hidden
Like tunnel rats
Even with a super brain
Same as them
My own bloodline
They treated me as stupid
Know them as liars now
Others got the degrees
Dosnt make you level head
Dosnt give you a better start
Take a head start-on deadenders
Street smart-you arent
Pretentious
Outdated
Stale stations
Stealing generals
Push over off spring
Dry as old toast
DeAd as a ghost💀
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HELLS COLD WORKHOUSE ❄️
From the older war
The big one before
An older man came
All the way across Europe
All hopes were wasted in him
I got the surname
I got the pain
From a country far far away
All the rejections
All the objections
Didn't like my birth
Didn't ask for this shit!!!
Lying to everyone
Things gone wrong
They wouldn't say
They got the status
Exhaulted
Protected
I got the shit
Lowered into the mud
Left to slip around
Left eXposed to shit society
Social knowledge takes time
Societal privilege
Now I know it's a lie
Can see the bad styles at play
Can the shit environment holds sway
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HELLS COLD WORKHOUSE ❄️
Just another way to steal
Used to cover up betrayals
Treat kids like garbage
Fuck them all to hell
All the degrees
Used for supremacy's
Only one who didn't lost it anywayz
Now what's it worth?!?
Lie cheat steal your own kind
Like hangovers from dementias
Devil's workhouse
Stupid as cabbages by that stage!!!
Living with moronics
Not clever with kids
Not clever with people
Not gods people even
What a waste
Academic-moronics
Go impress shallow strangers
With letters after your name
Nothing of use in the aftermath
Aftermath of shell shocks
Aftermath of all living hells
When you realise
Confirmed by professionals
You've had a rewire from a bad start
You were cheated by through your roots
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HELLS COLD WORKHOUSE❄️
Home life
Bad workhouse
Bad origins-faceless home
Bad povertys house
No divine purpose
Growing a garden of evil
That's no garden in eden
Living like cabbage heads
Cold house of shit games
Bad for child's brain
Deny developments
Social dynamics cruel
Soured circles
Kept in colder hells
Godless shits
Bad dynamics
Older wars
Mark you down as sick
Soon enough after
From living with human cabbages
Kids treated like human garbage
Can't know the world well-after it
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HELLS HOT KITCHEN
Frustration anger pain
I'm hot inside like my pan
Thoughts could burn holes right through the heavy steel
If I could focus it
Like lazer cuts
Like a lazer mind
Life is cold
Cold steel like my serving spoon
You've been served
Cold dead hand
Bad justice
Cold relatives
Bad houses
Like cold steel
Try not to rust
Memory like a Swiss cheese
Full of holes
Like my life
Memory over the hours
During the week
Have cuts in
Blurs like butter being spread
Like ham slices
Time needs to be slices
Or everything blurs together
Anger burns everything up together
Betrayals are costing the nation
More than we we've got
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HELLS CRYSTAL WINDOWS
The windows
My psycologist said I have
Windows of wellness
Windows of societal access
Sometimes it's that way
Sometimes it's working out fine
Sometime time holds out
Brain is more modulated
Go outside
Rejoin society
Do stuff for a few hours
Then back down the rat tunnel
Poor I'm gone
Private I'm hidden
Like I was never born
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GODS CRYSTAL WINDOWS
Forget doing stuff
Did I do that job?!?
Where did I put my tools
Walk into room
Walk out again
What the hell?!?
Didn't do the job
Distracted by stuff
Did an unrelated task
Can't finish that job
Lost my stuff again
Put stuff down
Somewheres
What was I thinking?!?
Lost my tools again
So no ticks off that chore
Was so near
To getting done
Now it's gone off too far again
Back on the list again
Have to rewire my methodicals
Have to try remember
To start goal all over
Frustrating timelines
Stupid ass lifestyle!!!
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GODS CRYSTAL WINDOWS
Till I'm finding my stuff again
Help me to remember
I'll come back neXt week
Then I'll have my glasses again
Then I'll have my windows
Windows of wellness
In time he meant
Time goes off course
Time brakes down inside my memorys
Time goes real AWOL
Scares me shitless
Scares me wickless
Scares me till I shit myself
Scarred from over perceptive(s)
Time out for that
Too much awareness
Too much capacitys overwhelm
Then brain short-curcuits
That's what psycologist said
Knows why shit happens
Crueltys affect capacitys
Chaotics create lowered capacitys
Deprived-circles
Weird familys deny reason
Worse familys-abuse reasons
Sour dynamics-creates social damages
Creates after-effects
Wars without even picking up a gun!!!
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HELLS MINEFEILDS 💀
Social status undermined
Social wars-through family life
Sick prioritys-scars you deep inside
Stays on my papers
Stuck with paying the price
Strange man who made me
Strange mind-gets passed on
Strange symptoms-repeating in me
Some bricks short off a castle
Some wire systems offside to society
Sometimes memory isn't computing
Sometimes brain can't match my goals
Sometimes mood swings cut off my style
Sometimes my brain needs a reboot
Everything getting on too loose
Time out
Too trippy-too troubled
Time to stop everything
Tripping over my own feet
Time out-before I muck shit up
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HELLS MINEFEILDS 🌶️
Tell the government guys
All your troubles
Lifestyle struggles
Weird anomalys
Genetics with issues
Bad relatives linger
Brain of conflicting issues
Brain with too much inside it
Genetical troubles are related
Awkward circumstances
Bad home life
Bent social cycles
Bloody embarrass
But it's done that now
Can't tell them no
Too late to stop them
Knew it was shit from the start
Kindness costs nothing
Kids go off course
Get diagnosis
No big surprises
That a wheel of shit choices goes around)
What my keeper had
Coming around the life wheel
Coming around in cycles
All over again
Now I'm sitting in his place
Now I'm walking around like him
Now I'm seeing the world as he has
Suffering horrors as he has
Struggle with systemic disorders
Stuck in the badlands
Stuck at the back
Stuck with society's conflicts
Loyaltys all in conflict
All conflicting instincts
Like he had
Emotions all twisted up
Emotives all clustered
Endevours all going off tracks
But it's my face now
Not his this time
History repeating itself!!!
That legend snake eating its own tail
Most of his symptoms
Most of his problems
Most of his issues with society
Much of me is his soldier boy
Much of him repeating inside me
Majorly similar symptoms
More like my body type than his
Look different
Walk different
Talk different
Try different styles
But it's all the same shit
But my painfilled brain
Can't hide where it comes from
War era fallout crossed the Atlantic!!!
Hippy's in England having some issues
First generation fallout
Everybody supposed to be cool
Everybody supposed to understand
Everyone suddenly dropping like flies
Bizzard medical symptoms
Secound generation
More educated than the first)
Second generation fallout
It's all still happening
Same bloody cycles as those who made me
Same as his shit
Same lifestyle chaotics
Same lifetime problems
Same mentalisms
But my character-not like his
More like me-but same character
Similar enough-sinking into shit
Sinking mud circles-dragging you down
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HELLS MINEFEILDS🌹
Tell the medicals
How you live
Sometimes
Legal requirements for citizens
Those off the grid get some systems
Written on my legals
Then they sign you off
Release you back outside
Given enough proof
Years of being analysed
Everything is on papers
Proof from professionals
My brain has problems
Problematics in my eXistance
Different brain to the regular citizens
Seen it all before from watching on his face
Have human decencys
Protecting your status
Good social justice
Laws protecting impaired folks
Let you get on
Given time out
Struggle goes on again
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HELLS HOT KITCHEN🌶️
Brainiacs kitchen
Brain like bouncing ping pong balls
Brainiac intellect
Burning away
Brain like a cauldron
Bubbling with stuff stuff & more stuff
Brain hurts
Brain over wired
Brain like mechanised hells
Bloody hell
Too many programmes
Too many leads
Too many wires
Conflict of applications
Want to take my brain out
Put it in a jar
So I can rest
Respite
Switch off
Die down
Dial it down
Lived with a guy so wired
Never learned how
He'd leave us-to go inside
He left this world behind
Didn't care because his world was there
Already inside him
Hyperactive mind
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HELLS HOT KITCHEN🌶️
Stirring noodles
Stirs my brain
Stirring vegetables
Stirs my pain
Medical anomalys
Medical weirdness
Medical wireless
Wired up brain
Wired up body
Ready for attack
Always tensed on up
No let up on that
24/7 brain drill
World drills through into my brain
Can't shut shit down
No relax
No rewire
No respite
Mentalists prevelance
Manic-speeds
Freaky-ass brainwaves
Frequency's of variety's
Frequently unreliable brain
Over intense signals
Mentalism
Some great
Some terrible
Always buzzing
Live like a livewire
Nerves like a hot wire
Nerves like a live wire
Train like noise
Coming down by brain tracking
Hard to be consistant
Hard to keep track
Head so full of life
Hell sometimes
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BRAINIACS OUTPOST
Crazy ass realitys
Getting better
Getting varietys
Getting worse
Variety's of cognitive weirdness
Brainiac brainwaves
Burning right through me
Keep on high alert
Keeping like a dog kept knawing
Like a ratt grinding away on a skull
Can't control my modulations
Can't regulate shit enough
Throughout the day
Throughout the night
Trapped inside
Staying safer in a small circle
World already wired up
Living through me
Limited society
Brain is too loud
Brain is too full of distractions
Brainwaves pick up distortions
Brain-body set to manic states
Brain like a record player
Burn like my keeper
Burning up all the time
Been living like him-hyper-wired
Been re-peating his styles
Been in retreat
Been going around cycles
Been acting like my relative
Being me-like him
Medical-madness
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BRAINIACS OUTPOST
Nocturnal sustainance brakes
No schedules
No access to society
No requirements
No diary
Notes on a note-block
Notes are on survival steps
Remember daily routine again
Unfreeze yourself
Stuff to do list
Nowhere to go list
Just till enough is enough
When my brain wire runs thin
Or the horrors get in again
Cognitive overload
Horror image meltdown
Colour distorted
Colour contorted
Colours going down badly
Colours brake down into just mists
Morbid pains driving me mental C/C DG
Zombies in the kitchen
Kitchen wall dissolving
Zombies seen as a cluster
Disturbing images
Just not gods world
Can be the end of my world
Day is already over
Dosn't feel savoury
Distorted going on sickly
Feels like the apocalypse
Feels freaky as fuck
Not funny when it looks real bad
When I'm ending on feeling all kindsa sick 🙉🧟
Nausea on the inside-sick on the outside
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BRAINIACS OUTPOST 🎯
Always bad airs
Stifle airs
Collars too tight
Begining on tightness
Loopy images
Fuzzy pictures
Tilting images
Brain won't go still
Makes you feel sick inside
Like being turned upside down
Super distorted reality
With everything melting down
Wrong speed record
Colours bubble ripple burn
Split & turn
Melt & burn
Distort & melt
Brake down into colours of khakis as dust
Burst into specks of coloured mists
Brain is all wrong
Bad screen
Brain wire distortions
Unclean images
That's a meal left undone
That's something slippy
That's something trippy
Feeling all wrong
Feeling too loose
That's somebody godless
That's somebody's sin
Making us feel sick
Unclean spirits
Getting on in
Go lie down
Or go fall down
Walls start moving
World starts tilting
Will be sick
If I can't become still inside
Look on inside again
Shut down outside again
Turn like a coin
All through my hours
Don't look outside
Count on hand
Count on palm
Count on your fingers
Hand of five
Look in on hand
Five words
How many can you remember?!?
Hold onto present
Hold onto links
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BRAINIACS OUTPOST📍📍
Brain goes all slurry
Brain being shook up
Feels like wanting to puke
But stuck on the inside
Bring mental focus back inwards
Or i'm out again
Sleep down-knock out
Neurodynamical see saw
Dropped down again
Drop back downer
Depressive haze
Super-fast downer
World falling in on me
Walls crumbling down
Latte & pills will have to do
No more dinner
Till it's gone again
Kitchen with a good wok
Kitchen with a goodly stock
Kitchen with a variety of mad stuff
If you can find it you can eat it
All types of foodstuffs
Everywhere
Everything somewhere
Brainiacs kitchen
Complex of chaos
Chaos so complex
Mystic maze of baffle
Man cannot live on literature alone!!!
Manic phases mean lockdown
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BRAINIACS HARD KITCHEN📍📍
Books for the brain
Noodle packets for the bloods
Parcels for the stomach
Delivered to the hermitage
Exist on the margins
Clinging on edge of the world
Still have five types of noodles
Starved of meaning in life
Stuff I've been saving
Good reserve stocks
Staying in foods
Step out of society foodstuffs
Students stuff yourself stuff
Survivalist basics
Stabilise bloods
Fast & quickly
Brake your fast faster
A cram your face bowel
Plastic bowel plastic fork
Plastic mug
No ceramics allowed
Head back to study's again
Blood levels are more stable
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HELLS HARD KITCHEN 💀
No chef styles here!!!
No recipes
No style
No planning
No gourmets
No fancys
No stars
Get a star just for trying
Get a star if the chilli's right
Get a star if it gets completed
Get a star if you don't get faint
Who needs ideal world to compete with?!?
Fantasy food fights
Food as competive sport
Some folks just get hungry
They put their life into their food
I put some food into my life
If I'm lucky to get it together
In the ghettos
Food is to not get sick
Not for social status
Chefs go blow your own trumpet
When I remember this life
Get unfreeze
Just grab it grub
Stave off the hunger beast
The bottomless pit
Can't wait any longer
Protein carbs & fibre
One wok provider
Provinder
Until hungers kick in
Only physical hungers get fed in this house
Can't do much more
Nothing else
Minimal society
Minimal interaction
Minimal realitys
Stomach like a bottomless pit
Hungry
Angry
Demonics at the hob
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HELLS HARD KITCHEN 🌶️
Thinking intensely
Most of my life
Mirrored in cooking
Social inequalitys
Angry in the kitchen
Aware of society
Aware of position
Awake to pityless pits
Alive still in life of shit!!!
Black steel wok
Like a mirror of social status
Circle of steel
Constant rotations
Constant returns
Back with circle of steel
Full of hungers
Full of attitudes
Full of angers
No time
No concentrations
Can't fiX it
Can only cook it
Can't make society kinder
Can only cook basics
To silence my stomach
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BRAINIACS HARD KITCHEN 📍📍
Cheap noodles
Cheaper life
Cook hungry
Cook angry
Cook on urgent
Morbid in the kitchen
Taking too long again
Evil spirits get gaps in concentrations
Those who hate on us
Those who create social targets
Time enough to create opposers
Bullshit premises
Don't even know you
Don't need your opinions
Don't even care
Time to slip in
Time to cause havocs
Time enough to make me see sick
Time to feel ill
Bad spirits
In bad colours
Bad undertakings
Bad energy's
Undermining cognitives
Cogs in wheels
Going turning
Turning over funny
Guys with melting brains
Peeps with lies
Pathologys
Cognitive disasters
Get in my day dreams
Distress in my daily hours
Clock is melting
Wavering
Wobbling
Disturbing
Dark greens going on darker
Dark greens can go morbid looking
Daily survivals
Chaotical undertakings
Watching out for bad colours
It means trouble!!!
Getting canny to it all
Their is trauma in the bloodstream
Of the nation's
Strange notions
Unearth older greifs
Sometimes I feel it
Daily undertakings
Daily greifs in the making
More greifs over the water
Brain to brain
Mind to mind
Over the Atlantic
Social realitys not so far off
Giant one
Ours is miniature version
Backbone of realitys
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BRAINIACS KITCHEN
History comes to life
Hunger of stomach
Hungers of life eternal
Never-ending circles
Short choppy thoughts
Like a chef's blade
Long strings of thoughts
Like the strings of noodles
Mind keeps on turning
While I'm stiring
Independent living
Everyday outcast
Everyday struggles
Modern life baffles
Clawing on through
Flashbacks of realitys
Hell holes of murderations
Hell holes in hidden places
Hell holes of crime
God is overworked yet again
World of hells domains-overwhelms
Cans full of beans
Cheese slices full of holes
Brain full of strange
Sometimes memorys full of holes
Help me to remember
Carers will know it
Parts of life missing
Dreams been sat on by enemys
Sad like a dented tin can
Feels so damaged
Want it in strong lines
Solid as steel
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BRAINIACS OUTPOST
Life can sometimes be salvaged
Life of unrealised dreams
Life full on unfinished chores
Life of half eaten meals
Moth holes in my best dreams
Like moth holes in best clothes
Can't be easily undone
Independent living attempts
Necessary isolations
Humorous corrective attempts
Some kinda difficultys
Some kinda struggles
Some kinda triumphs
Getting stuff done
Enough that I can survive
No domestical goddess in here!!! 🎃
Focus on care
Despite others morbid intents
Feel evil when it's in this world
Feel emnitys in others
Getting in my way
Feel atmospheres
See colours all around places
See far away places
Go wait for the kettle
Feels like an hour
Tappy
Tetchy
Hate waiting
Brain gets busy while I'm waiting
Bad ones calling
Wall is dissolving away
Before my eyes
See zombies on the other side
Visions from some kinda hell
Scary ass shit
Just not funny
There are portals to all living hells
Somewhere
In time
Other worlds
Braking on through
Brain balances
Bit likely to go wonky
War of kitchen travestys
All thoughts good & bad
Converge in the kitchen
Mental symptoms getting on in
Making it better
Sentiments getting lost
Making it worse
Forget what I'm doing
Apocalypse now taking over control
Morbid visions interrupting chores
Essential to life
Damage control model
Damage control mode
Damage containments
Remembering life skills
Need to activate
Out of obsessive loop
Turn the loops off
Back into damage control
Back into containments
Back into life-loops
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GODS DARK WINDOWS 📍📍
Unfreeze again
For life skills
How to survive
Cook eat wash
Unfreeze life again
Got stuck again
Depressive relooping
Stuff that isn't study's
Stuff that isn't morbid
Stuff that's everyday realitys
Getting lost in mental mazes
Getting back control
Remembering to be human
After studying the lore
Losing it again
Wars with realitys
World full of otherkin
Waves of intruders
Supposed to be alone
But dosnt feel like it
Brain like a roundabout
Topics
Memorys
Visions
Everything
Stuff pushing in
Bent in weird like the gherkins
Going dark greens on workings
Sour worlds in suspension
Humans left pickled
World full of spells
World full of stranger hells
Strangers getting in my head
Old enemy's have their says
Sour as the pickle jars
Blessings & curses
Hunger & angers
Release & reverses
Pains & pangs
Hurts & hearses
Prayers & heresys
Spills & sponges
Sinks & plugs
Sausers & spoons
Sweet & sour
Death clock ticking by the hour
Someone needs a tribute
Curses & boons
Banes & pains
Sugar & honey on spoons
To sweeten bitter life
Lifestyle of chaos
Ghetto wars not far behind
Trying to run from it
Shit historys-being controlled
Shit memorys-being used
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BRAINIACS KITCHEN📍📍
Not just noodles that we be cooking
Wordsmiths be pulling out strings of words
Minds be full of thoughts
Nobody heard
Somewheres
Pulls out like noodle strings
There are army's of hidden hells
Try to pray for my family's
Try to pray for strength
Get prayers being blocked
Then I know there are other works
Daily survival
Old time revival
Old wars revised
Older time styles
Bitter tragedy's
Better fabrics of realitys
All dependent on faith
Foundation of faith
Or coming up as dead
Or fates worse than death itself!!!)
World of all wars
Manifest in my kitchen
World of all hells
Entangled with my kitchen world
A mind full of threads that are pulling
An eye on the world somewhere
Moving in & moving back out
World of daily dutys
World of intruding realitys
World of painfull fatalitys
Like my mind body spirit
Goes off to war(s)
Didn't tell me about it
Till it started to hurt loads
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BRAINIACS KITCHEN
While my brain is pulled apart
My body trys to work
Hands on the kitchen pot
Bloody dripping tap needs replacing
Everything's too old
Minds getting on too creaky
Like my mind is a creaky gate
Needs me some oils
Interruptions
Hallucinations
Visions
Mixing up symptoms coming on quick
No no no
World full of opposers
No way man-too much
Not even ready for the day yet
Not even had me a hot meal yet
My own mind already feels wrecked
Like I argue with my own thoughts
Like my brain has an echoe
Like my brain wants to be my enemy
Like my brains on a loan out
Bring it right in back
Brainwaves in distortion
Brainiacs pay back
Back in contortions
Bloody chaotic reality(s)
Neurodynamics all going twisty
My brain is too much
Comes in too fast
Intelligent intrusions
Lawless spirits gets in
Breeding confusions
Bleeding bad colours
Ugly sense of self
Forbidding sense of dreadfullness
Feeling of badness is there
Just trying to work it
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HELLS HARD KITCHEN
Gritting my teeth through it
Getting myself through it
Mental symptoms
Got to cook regardless
World of confusions
Web of worlds in my mind
Wonder what it all meant?!?
Even during kitchen time
I'm wanting some answers
24/7 trying to work it out
Dog with a bone
Life keeps on knawing at me
Dragging me out
Digging me out
Relentless search for answers
When life's been a nightmare
Full of bad dreams come true
My enemy having control
Right from the start
Jigsaws not fitting
Everything's unravelling
No mundane realitys
No tired old kitchen
No relentless dripping of taps
Is stopping me asking
Stopping my questions
God better answer me some today
Not just born for the kitchen
Not just chained to the wok
Not just a domestic worker
Not just a ghetto statistical
Not just someone from a broken circle
Some child of god
Once made for better
Been in league with the divine
Got me a brainstorm
Got myself these headstorms
Somewhere today
Nightmares & dreams
Interjections while I'm awake
No crystal clear visions
Impartial realitys
Private spaces
Has got intrusions
Interventions
Overwhelm the brain
Too much interruptions
Too much informations
Possible answers
Whole world of weird
Whole world of ways
When I'm angry at the sink
Hard to do chores with the world on my back
Enemy's are turning over like worms in an apple
There are enemy worms in my brain
Don't trust this world
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SOCIAL SCENE WARS 🎯
Leaving me lies
Answers as lies
Still keeping it up
Day & night
Screws that are turning
Everyday
Dreaded symptoms
Mind body & spirit
Is already twisting
Hunched up with tensions
Just gotten up
Backs getting on bad already
Bad spirits bring on tensions
Plotting to go on back
But still chained to kitchen sink
Can't go back into bedroom still hungry
Don't want weird brain
From having me low bloods
Got to struggle on through
Domestical world of strains
Domestical world of strange
Domestical world of strangers
Domestical world of evil old pains
Spiritual interventions
Unclean spirits
Bastard spirits
My gods got enemy's
In this world & the next
And I can hear them at it
Making on bad works
Taking on bad words
Can hear them babbling
Can hear them scrabbling
Can hear them fighting
Spiritual warfare's
Spirit interventions
Places in the world going wrong
Life casting on a dime
Wars in my kitchen
Enemy's out there
Gods got these enemy's
Pressing on my house
Divine interventions
Holding us back from untimely death
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SOCIAL SCENE WARS📍📍
All held by a thread
Life being kept taught
Body being kept on tense
Hunger fear death held back by strength of will
Love to be rolling
Love to be knowing divine will is served
Love to be cooking up happyiness
But it's all awkward
Battered old place
Seen better days
And lots of groaning
I'm down beat
Bad spirits
Trying to beat me down
Sad old kitchen
Sad & lonley
Sinister missions
Of evil spirits
Prolonging poverty
Feeding off depression
Lawless oppressions
Satanical inventions
Without gods mercy's nothing gets cooking
Without god's will stay on hungry
Battered & worn
Bash & battered
Worn out already
Sure seen it all
Gotta keep on pushing
Can't study on an empty stomach
Can't fight gods war on an empty stomach
Groaning along on nothing
Getting us nowhere fast
Get me some noodles & beans
Store when I'm thinking on better
Parcels from supply chains
Survival instincts
Like a human squirrel
Like a squirrels nature
Keeping me a stack up
Got me some supply's
Keeping us a store
Feed us better
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HELLS HARD KITCHEN🌶️
Deli meats in the pan
Cream & sweeteX in my tea
Get me some bitter styles
Get me some better dreams
Can't find shit for nothing
Can't find my stuff for something
From rain of stresses
Looking through something
Just want kitchen life
Start the day off empty
Gotta plug that hole
Hunger damn well hurts
Been in bed too damned long
Been afraid of arising cause it all rushes in
Brain not too clear
Spiritual warfare in the kitchen
Not just noodles in a packet
Strings of thoughts like noodles in the brain
Lord give me strength
Starting off domestical ball & chain
All over again
Got me a pile of noodles packets
Got me a metal wok
Got me cans of peas & beans
Got me some love for God
Got me some moral fibres
Got me old kitchen of shames
Got me a click-off kettle for all my sweeted brews
Got me medicals going up & down the scales
Got me some strained life going off the rails
Food & drink
Tidy & clean
Prayers & candles
Didn't want hell
Didn't want hell here on earth
Didn't want hell inside & out
Start the day off slow
Already hitting onto overload
Rattle on emptys
Feels like snake bones
Just a blurr of different pains
Stiff old bed
Arise on emptys
Feelings knawing
Death is all around me
Jeopardy's surround like a circle
Death is righteous in our side
Trying to hold the links from snapping
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HELLS MINEFEILDS 💀
Stomach churning
Stomach empty
Stomach as knawing
Knawing as my soul
Hungers like my whole life
Starting the day with pains
Starting the day with fears
Just wanted the kitchen
Just got myself home life
Just got myself another day
Started off trying
Started off praying
Started off struggling
No shame in struggle
For those made different
Can be taking that bit longer
Here on earth
Daily dutys
Earthbound mundane
Circle of hungers
Life & death
Circle of thirsts
Life & death
In the small kitchen
Private life
Here on earth
Circle of works
Lifestyle endevours
Life at home
Homebound
Homebound for my sanitys
Kitchenbound
Going on in for hellbound
Know I'm gonna see things not there
Hear things not here
Know stuff that's way out
I'd rather not care
Lawfull is what the good lord made
But chaos seems to creep in with the ghosts
Of solitary living
Bad ghosts
Bad memory's
Bad doorways
Waking nightmares
Walking nightmares
Walking waking nightmares
Nightmares in daytime's
Daily activitys disrupted
Interrupted by visions
Versions of reality(s)
Confusions
All over the five senses
Struggle to comprehend
Cornucopia of interludes
Interruptions
Delaying of chores
Pains in the body
Mind like a living television
What the hell has happened to me?!?
There was one other
Some other
Just one other
He could see stuff like me
Have nightmares when awake
Didn't wait for sleep
For bad dreams
Bad seams
Strange visions
Distorted realitys
To come on in
To daily life
Pushing on through ......